I haven’t actually written anything on tumblr in awhile. I guess that means I was happy and just having fun living life. But now, comes a time where things change and where things go a different way.
I think to myself, “Wow, things are really changing and I am growing up. Friends are in different places in the world, family members come and go, some are starting their own family, people are changing (for good or bad), a lot of hardships, heart breaks, tears shed, new encounters and friends, open opportunities.”
Things will never be the same again no matter how hard to try to maintain it.
I always think back of my old church (NYPC), even more now than before. I miss the good old days where I didn’t have to worry so much and the biggest worry was if I memorized a bible verse or what game we were going to play after service. I always remember me, Isaiah, Peter and Sungchea always together hanging out or playing basketball every sunday. And never would I have thought we would all go our separate ways. We are all in different places now and doing our own things. All of us changed. We are not those small kids anymore but thats the only thing that always comes to mind.
Gosh how I loved high school and I regret not doing much. I really wished I was more out going or joined more clubs and was active. I really should’ve join the school musical or something. But I really did enjoy hanging out with the boys (Max, Mike, Wilson, Jeff, Kyle, Adi). Always do something fun even if it was dumb. Also remember the times where I got in trouble countless times for the dumbest things like being part of a stolen bag or a ripped up bus seat or even having my phone case out. High school just seems like a blurr to me now even though it’s only been about 2 years.
My first year in college was amazing, even though I sucked at chemistry..and calculus. Most blessing thing that happened to me was probably First Light. I really do miss being part of it. When I see them perform it reminds of the year that I had and really wished that I stayed. I loved the trips we went to (Jam More and BIDB). Thanks to First Light, the group really helped me to focus to sing for God and not for my own selfish glory. Many times I had that pride and mindset but FL helped me really changed that attitude I had. It was something that I really struggled with and probably still struggling with.
Why am I thinking about all of this now?
I guess it’s because I am starting another new chapter in my life. I guess just so I don’t “forget” I need to write it down like a check point? or milestone? or summary of how I came to be and how it got me to this point in my life.
God, you got me this far and I want to see what you have in stored for me in Florida.